cerita bapak tentang sawah

Bapak saya, di usianya yang ke lima puluh, bilang begini...

Nanti pensiun mau balik lagi ke Magelang. Hahaha. Mau nyawah di rumah eyang.” 

Bapak mengaku lelah.

Pegawai kantoran biasa, dengan penghasilan per bulan sejajar garis rata-rata pendapatan per kapita, dengan modal kebulatan tekad yang ditempa sedari muda, dengan kepala setengah botak dan raut wajah lelah setiap malam sepulang kerja, dengan segala kelebihan dan kekurangannya untuk mengurus keluarga, namun ia, bapak saya, sampai kapanpun tetap saya anggap juara. 

Beberapa tahun terakhir ini, akhirnya sang juara mengaku lelah. “Kerjaan kantor nggak habis-habis” kesahnya, sementara ia sadar dirinya menua, dan faktor usia tak ubahnya salah satu pembunuh karir paling berbahaya yang seringkali diabaikan dengan sengaja. 

Akhirnya, di usianya yang ke lima puluh, bapak saya bilang begini...

Nanti pensiun mau balik lagi ke Magelang. Hahaha. Mau nyawah di rumah eyang.” 

Bapak... lelah? 

Yang penting kuliah kamu bener, kamu nggak narkoba, kamu nggak macem-macem. Selebihnya adalah tugas orang tua untuk percaya sama anaknya. Sepenuhnya. Semampunya.” 

Saya tahu, figur setiap bapak di mata setiap anak akan selalu berbeda, masing-masing menganggapnya juara, dan itu lumrah. Sah. 

Nanti pensiun mau balik lagi ke Magelang...” 

Untuk apa? 

Hahaha. Mau nyawah di rumah eyang...” 

Saya pikir, jauh di hari lampau itu, barangkali bapak juga dengar eyang bilang, entah di tahun berapa, ketika eyang pulang kerja, ketika eyang mulai dimakan usia, ketika eyang memutuskan kembali ke sawah... 

Ketika eyang mengaku lelah.

Pak, suatu hari nanti akan tiba giliranku untuk merasa lelah, walaupun belum cukup lelah untuk menggarap sawah.



saya kesal luar biasa saat menatap cermin begitu lama
karena dia masih menunggu
sementara saya berangsur-angsur memelihara ragu.

tapi saya tidak cemburu
pada akhirnya, anda tidak akan memilih salah satu di antara kami. saya tahu.

maaf saya main curang...



Does the news humanize us? Does the technology humanize us? 

Reading newspapers, watching televisions, for an instance we knew what happened out there. We knew how global crisis has affected people on an enormous spectrum. We knew how people chose to spend their money on music concert rather than environmental donation. We knew who will be the next indonesian idol by mere polling or such romance which served by the media industry. We knew just everything. 

However, in this cyber society who promised us a high speed circulation of information transaction, we might possibly have a larger access. Moreover, we may pick information on our own and we may subjectively filtering them to define truth by ourselves. Thus, the truth becomes relative, commodified by a single mechanical attempt only to determine profit motives and company’s lifecycle. To be more precise, the truth is perpetually oversimplified until it stuck at unknown circumstance, which also happens to turn people into unhearted cyborg. 

A reverse theory in which people are begin to lose their morality, as a human that often inhumanly humanized. A human without any single sense of humanity. 

A Logical Consequence: Whose to Blame? 

What i want to say first, is the failure result even though mass media has struggled for obtaining one sustainable strategy. We know that mass media must always have to serve appropriate informations for public. They ought to effectively link various sphere in civil society with their conventional benefit. But we also know that mass media won’t survive without capital or financial injection from business motives (not to mention the regulators, media industry, and civil society) and their interests. In other words, every mass media should also fulfill their needs. This is the main issue which mass media often neglected. Which side they are on: stockholders or stakeholders? 

Another possibility is by asking the government to reclaim mass media back under their authority like old times (indonesia new order). So then mass media would gain fixed income from taxes and bills. Though it is not an easy task. They still have to figure how to compete among mass media industries. Or worse, they will driven back into apparent tool of mass control and propaganda by the rulers. 

Secondly, about journalism code of ethic which seemingly downgrading bit by bit into the grey translucent area and foremost, positioned outside jurisdictional territory. Aside from any news value, is it proper to watch news about vandalism act and violence during our dinner? Vice versa: aside from ethical code, is it inappropriate to bring an information consisted high news value into public? If this is a logical consequence for mass media purposes, what kind of result did you expect from media literacy agenda? What is the short term and long term benefit you will gain? Yet, we prone to choose our own information based on our needs. And it is psychologically true. Study says. 

Third, the rapid advance development in technology, information, and related stuffs, also how it will affect the law. This phenomenon has triggered the law to remove its position and to be able to adapt in such dynamic changes, then it will reattain the control purpose once again. Unfortunately, the current laws are not structurally made and indicating vague wordings that can be interpreted according to whoever would want to benefit from it. Things such as unmaintained agenda and imperfect implication, unclear visionary and hidden motives, has finally push the law to reconstruct their basic platform. 

The questions are : what kind of law that enable to adapt and to control in the same time? Talking about concept, this might be possible enough. But technically as we speak, it surely needs a lot of work. This tidal wave phenomenon in information development has caused an inevitably large scale turbulent and eventually experienced diaspora inside mass media. Further expectations will no longer necessary if the law chose not to act. Meanwhile, there are bunch of media enterprises in macro scale and a whole arrived individuals who join the citizen journalism trend in micro section. There is not much time left. Or there is no time at all. 

I recall my mentor’s joke: what we need is one rich lunatic who willingly contribute his wealth to build a non-profit motive mass media. I know there is no such thing. As if there is no such social media who care enough to serve social needs.

Additional Summaries:
  1. The growth of the media industry in indonesia has been driven by capital interest, leading to a media oligopoly and the concentration of ownership
  2. There are twelve large media groups controlling nearly all of indonesia’s media channels
  3. There is a number of media owners who are closely connected to politics. Therefore, the media have becoma a mechanism by which businessmen and politicians convey their interests while gaining profit from the business
  4. The media owners turn the media into a simple commodity, with the audience being treated as mere consumers rather than rightful citizens. The concentration of the media industry through mergers and acquisitions is the main reason behind this
  5. The difficult process in getting a permit to broadcast is one of the most crucial problems faced by community medias
  6. The government as the regulator finds it difficult to synchronize the regulations with the fast-changing media industry environment, and this has allowed the industry to run loose without firm regulations
  7. Public information in the media becomes the industry’s privilege. Most media companies also refer to ratings in order to produce their content. The media tends to operate on the logic of manufacturing people’s desire and then claiming that this represents the people’s need
  8. The access to the media is still uneven and is still concentrated on the main islands only, since there is a stunning gap in the media infrastructure distribution
  9. The internet has become an instrumental infrastructure in which the media industry must face the new challenge in media technology : convergence and digitalization
  10. The result will be an integration of content provider industry with the telecommunications industry as a way to create multiplatform, technology-based media
  11. Proper development of the media industry necessitates proper media infrastructure and requires media literacy among citizens to create a well-informed society by providing public-oriented information and providing public spaces for citizen participation.

*these summaries are taken from Mapping the landscape of the Media Industries in contemporary Indonesia*